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Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Today was really.. a whirlpool of emotions. I'd better start with the good first. Might as well make this good feeling last well.

I made this blogskin, and I'm really proud of it! Especially the butterfly (duh). Though I realised too late that the sidebar is a teeny weeny lil bit.. small. Darn.

Anyway. Today at school, as a post-exam activity, we learnt archery! (Y) (Y) (Y) Haha! Loved it. Scored three bulls eyes rofl. And I got chocolate for that! While waiting for our turns, we watched Up. It's been such a long time since I watched it! SO AWESOME MAN SZVNIZVDVNZOVGNIOSBJNGXZ

- I'm just going to interrupt myself here for a bit -

I didn't post at all in this blog since April 17. WOW. I even missed my blog's anniversary! D: .. oh well. There's always next year. It'll be big.. fantastic.. EPIC! 8D

- interrupting again~ -

Btw btw, my Higher Malay marks.. I got B3! Quite good, but I know I can do better for Paper 2. Atikah beat me; she got A2! unfairness. so I got third in class.

- I already forgot my first topic -

I wrote lots of fanfiction lately. And now there's more plot bunnies gnawing at my feet. Looks like I'll be busy during the hols! Other than procrastinating of course. That's normal in a teenager's life LOL.

- where was I? oh nevermind. -

I haven't eaten lunch.

- okay that was not what I wanted to say rofl. -

Tomorrow I'll be getting back my Geography and English papers! OMG I'm so scared for English. What if I drop? Then I'll never be proud of myself ever again! I'll lose my dignity! My pride! My life! Oh, woe is me!

Yes, I've come to realise (and accept the fact - Merlin knows how long that took) that I have a penchant for dramatics. It's not my fault! It's really fun when you exaggerate stuff. And annoy the heck out of people by overreacting. Try it!

- I just realised I interrupted myself without stating so -

I've run out of good stuff to say. Darn. Let's take a road to the worse and tell the bad news and just get over this asap.

The bad news?

I FAILED MY MATHS. AGAIN.

Aaaaaaaaargh! It's so disappointing and sad! I cried when I received the papers. Sure I improved by 10 marks, and moved up a grade, but I. STILL. FAILED.

I'll never like Maths.

I was - and still am - really sad about it. Partly because I failed (duh), but mostly because I know everyone won't believe me when I say I tried my best; that I studied so hard but this was the result. They won't believe me, say it's all my fault, and then do nothing at all to make me feel better.

And that's just really disheartening to know.

Worse still, on my way home the song that kept playing on my mp3 player even though it was on shuffle, was Untitled by Simple Plan. Coincidence, much? Cried some more when I heard the lyrics and how it perfectly suited my current predicament.

I want to prove to everyone that I can succeed without essential things in life that they have and I don't,

but this just brings everything down.

I can do better. Yes I can.

But I did my best.

It's never enough to please you all.

There. I said it all; got it out of my chest. Now I'm going to beta someone's fanfic to take my mind off things. What a downturn in my emotions. -sigh- The things people say can just make your smile a hundred-and-eighty degrees turn.

"Oh no," said Lupin. "Much worse than that. You can exist without your soul, you know, as long as your brain and heart are still working. But you'll have no sense of self anymore, no memory, no ... anything. There's no chance at all of recovery. You'll just -- exist. As an empty shell. And your soul is gone forever ... lost."

Darth Padfoot wants a chocolate bar@ 6:41 PM
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INOUE AYUMI.
I'mma huge CHOCOHOLIC.
World-class crazy, odd weirdo. (:
BIG FAN OF HARRY POTTER. Squee!
Very, very, very, very random. & weird. Oh and random.
Born in the 20th century,
on the tenth of the first month.
Currently thirteen and aliveeeee.
Proud Capricorn. Mwoohahaha.
EVIL!
BOOKWORM! Totally unexpected from my looks, no?
Tall. /sigh
very unpredictable.
~~BGPS 2009, 6/2~~ CHIJ KC 2010, 105.
VERYYYY big fan of Harry Potter & Star Wars.
Anime & manga lover.
No fixed personality.
SE Satio~ <3
Sarcastic.
Aspiring to be an author!

craves;

Food: Chocolate
Drink: Milo Ice-blended HL Chocolate Milk
Book: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
Author: JK Rowling
Song:
Eminem - Mockingbird
Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding On
初音ミク - BLACK
We the Kings - Check Yes Juliet
Singer: 初音ミク, Avril Lavigne, Eminem
Band: We the Kings
Genre: J-Pop, J-Rock, Rock, Trance
Game: Harvest Moon DS

Quote:
'Oh, are you a Prefect, Percy?' said one of the twins, with an air of great surprise. 'You should have said something, we had no idea.' 'Hang on, I think I remember him saying something about it,' said the other twin.
'Once– '
'Or twice–'
'A minute– '
'All summer–'
'Oh, shut up,' said Percy the Prefect.

~ Fred & George, Harry Potter & The Philosopher's Stone

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